on being around
January 14, 2002 at 10:40 p.m.
Indugence.
I indulged in a vent on the way to dinner tonight. Drove to Lewisville to meet with my beloved Urmi (she moved:() and just let go the whole way there... just cried and cried. About how I could finally feel again after so long and it never occured to me that the boy might not want me. Well, technically he does, but that's not enough to compensate for all my flaws, such as leaving Texas in a few months.
Which doesn't help the situation, by-the-by.
Anywho, dinner was so nice and healing a loverly because I love urmi ohsomuch. But that baked potato sunk in my tummy and I'm sleepy.
So I took a long bath with this fancy oil my roomate gave me for my birthday until I got sick of being wet, wrapped a towel around me and laid on my bed, looking around at my college apartment bedroom. Pictures everywhere, and a mess that has gotten completely out of control.
My mess. My single Reva mess.
Just trying to regain some of that feeling. Of being exotic in this state. I'm almost there. I'm just so tired of running. I'm going to lay down and not be afraid of the silence.
Did you know I have my first steel drum band rehearsal tomorrow?????
SUPERCRACK is uppers.