girl syndrome?
January 15, 2002 at 10:26 p.m.
I'm the third child of four. I don't know what that makes me, because I'm not the middle child. But I AM the only girl, and that's enough of a psychological profile for me.
I don't know all that entails, but I think it means I like getting what I want. I rarely did as a child, what with all those boys.
Got what I wanted today, though. Got the last slot in a class on writing personal memoirs and essays. It fills out my freshman comp credit, and oh my golly, what class is better for a girl with a paper journal and an internet diary?
maybe I'll get good at this finally :)
And right now I'm trying to decide whether or not I'm despondent about the boy because it can't work and I wish it did, or whether or not I'm being the girl and I'm frustrated becuase I can't have him and I want him. Something like that.
And maybe everything would change and the stars would align if he would call and say "please?"
but until then, I'm pulling in double duty at the gym and am calling my mom every hour.
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Danielle and I are standing next to each other in steel drum band. Doulble yippe! I thought this would just be fun - and oh golly it will be, but DANG it's going to be hard. Ben says the double tenor pans are the hardest and that's what we're on. I forgot that this would actually make me work. Sheez.
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Candis is right. So what if this is my last semester at UNT? Does that mean I'm going to roll over and stop living for a few months, roll up the carpet and close up shop so no one will miss me and I won't miss them when I leave??
But I guess it could still relegate me to singlehood for an extended period of time. I feel like a broken record.... single...single...single...single...
I'm not going to stop living, dang it.
but SUPERCRACK is still going to get to bed on time:)