solo for good
April 14, 2003 at 2:20 p.m.
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh
Reva is single once more - this time for keeps. We had the "abdication" discussion on Friday and I couldn't feel better.
I mean, yeah, there's a little sadness and I do miss him, but honestly, he wasn't a very good boyfriend when it comes down to it and I feel liberated... free to be myself again without him watching me, analyzing and looking for certain qualities he wants in a future wife and mother.
He was so busy looking at me with a microscope, he missed seeing me.
And it was unnerving. He was uncomfortable with all my friends and that just made me sad. I didn't feel comfortable being myself or dressingin my typical wacky way or.... and my career was completely unimportant in his eyes, really.
Enough dogging it - he really is a decent guy who I'm sure I'll be friendly with in the future but he definately stays in the "ex" file this time.
I'm just saying, I feel FREE!!!!!!!! Friday when he left my place, I went into my roomate Misty's room and curled up for a few minutes - then she suggested I get dolled up and go with ehr to the Mormon dance...
YES!!!!!!!! I hadn't been able to go dancing since I dated this last guy because he hates dancing - and y'all know how much I ADORE it!!!
I got all gussied up and had a total blast. I got asked to dance and even got to swing dance and just feel like Reva again.
REVA.
He hated it when I referred to myself as the Reva. I think my self esteem made him uncomfortable becuase deep down he didn't have much of one, poor dear.
She Reva now, baby!! And she's dancing and hanging out with her guy friends again and being herself. I MUST remember to not let someone get me that down again. Well, I keep making that mistake - but my friends are always tehre, warning me.
Warn on, kids. Reva is flying it solo for a while, thank heavens.
Quick funny -
My classical theory teacher is this barrel-looking middle aged lady who looks like she could be the meanest lady on earth, so the fact that she has the funniest dry humor is so surprising it's hillarious.
This weekend she had to go down to our rival, U of Arizona for a conference. SO she and the other ASU faculty decided to be devilish and changed all the default home pages on the UA school of music computers to ASU and Kansas - the school that knocked UA out of the final four.
SHe knew it was juvinile, but sheez - a professor to do that?
I nearly peed myself I laughed so hard.
SUPERCRACK says GO ASU SUN DEVILS!!!!!!!! wooohooo!!!!!!