back from Texas
November 12, 2002 at 5:02 p.m.
now... THAT was a weekend.
Wednesday night my dear romates drove me to the airport so I could grab the 2:30am red-eye to Texas. I slept the whole time.. had quite the adventure. It was just so exciting to do something that exotic. Hop in the plane in the middle of the night, fly into my sweetheart's arms. Exotic.
We spent all Thursday hiding from the real world. Just Loren and I and naps. Ahhhh....
It was intereseting driving into Denton. This place in Texas I spent 5 tears in... now all these months I've been missing it... dreaming of the place I found familiar and safe...
Golly, Denton is sure small and ugly:) But it's beautiful to me.
I saw all the people I loved and I realized so many things about my life... the people I love stay there... our zip codes change, not our hearts. Ahhhh....
I went to the Brickhaus on Thursday for the traditional open mic Thursday... it was so packed and I was so sleepy that I didn't play, I just watched Kazu and my friends being odd and themselves. Golly I love life.
I got to go dancing, spend the night at Danielle's, ride Loren's motorcycle again all over Denton - holding on tighter than necessary:), eat at Razoos with Urmi - get totally surprised by her, snuggle up to my sweetheart during a scary movie, play frisbee and run around ni the crisp autumn air, crunch dead leaves under my feet, have brekfast in a total Texas dive with MatthewDavis and just...
The bombshell I guess I was expecting though was that Loren isn't going to be moving out here. He's going to get in another semester of school before he leaves for 2 years on his mission and all I get to hear from him is in letters. Snail mail.
That's why everytime I see him or get to talk to him, I have a hard time not squeezing him until my eyes pop out and not letting go. He's so understanding and wonderful... being apart hurts too much. I found someone! One minute I'm so excited because he's in my life and so amny things are better. And the next minute I'm hyperventilating because the future scares me and I want him here now in my arms, no questions asked.
le sigh...
He was absolutely marvelous. I forgot where I was or what year it was. And all of the sudden yesterday I realized I live in Arizona now and not Texas and I had to go back. So I cried half the day. Loren was a dear in comforting me... but oh it hurt. ouchouch.
My friends in Texas needed me. Snuggling with Danielle in her soft soft bed was this incredible blast from the past. I miss her like insance. Seeing Urmi's bright face there - playing violin with her tabla-teaching father - why am I not there???
I woke up this morning and got two phone calls from friends in Arimazona who needed me too.
I made the right choice.
The only thing is saying goodbye to Loren almost ripped my heart out of my chest. I really don't do this distance thing well. Why the heck do I keep getting dragged into these situations?
So there's an emotional review of my amazing weekend in Texas. Golly my life is complicated.
SUPERCRACK says but you know.. the world is a lot smaller than it used to be...