why my violin stuff is important in the BIG SCHEME
October 04, 2001 at 8:36 a.m.
Reva is so nervous. She had a good lesson, but the impending doom of a senior recital is too much too take.
Especially because every time I write "recital" have have to be extra careful not to for get the "i" and write "rectal." That's a lot of stress, man.
But there's nothing like a lesson to get you thinking... I was standing there, playing French Impressionist music, and I suddedly thought, THIS DOES NOT MATTER. I mean, it does very much in the right here and now, and it will for a very long time because it means I took a gift I was given and didn't let it go to waste - I cultivated it.
But in times of tragedy or any time when you strip a person of all of their things and just leave THEM, what does a senior recital matter?
The big things in life are the things I CAN'T do. I can't cook, support myself, have children, get married, nuttin. Isn't that the big important stuff?
And I'm spending all my time crying over Debussy?
What do I have left if you strip me of all my things - my red dresser, my red tutu, my willd party girl ways, my violin, my fabulous wardrobe, my love mobile...
You have a person that cared so much about something she changed her whole life to fit around this talent and work to make it good enough to bring happy to other people. SO it DOES MATTER.
and SUPERCRACK SAYS.. an' that's a fact, jack.