pre turkey thoughts
November 21, 2001 at 2:50 a.m.
Happy Thanksgiving soon. I'm going to leave for Los Angeles tomorrow for a holiday with almost all the fam. I need the rest, I suppose, but I've been doing enough of it lately.
Just watched the entire Breakfast at Tiffany's. It's always good to replace the old memories with nice new ones, and staying up half the night with Urmi did the trick.
sooooooooo..... had a gig today. This morning. Got to school afterwards, pulled into a parking spot and spotted the ex. With his new girlfriend. He saw me. And ignored me.
Didn't need to see that today of all days. Luckily I had my geetar for the gig, so I sat myself in a practice room across the street and played and sang all the songs I've written loudly. Therapy never worked this well.
And just when I finally felt a little better - pop goes the D string again. Keep breaking that one, durn it.
You know, I wrote a nice song for the ex. Not a love song mind you, I was never that gone. A like song. And singing it agin, it was still pretty good. I'm actually proud of it, which is a miracle in my present state of mind.
I played it for him once. He didn't say anything. Never asked to hear it again. It was like it had never existed. I had a boy write a song about me once... it was how I'd broken his heart. We eventuallly got back together and I ended up singing it in our old band. You don't ignore when someone writes a song for you, right?
I found out tonight none of my friends could stand this last ex. That makes me feel super. I like my friends to be on my side for a change.
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For the first time in almost 50 years, UNT is playing in a bowl game. I have a chance to go. In New Orleans. Should I take it?
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I love Thanksgiving. I love this relaxing, eating, thanky time of year. Our family has a tradition - every year we have 3 kernels of corn next to our plates in rememberance of a pioneer thing, and we have to say 3 things we are thankful for.
I have so much to be thankful for this year, but it's a little cloudy right now. but last year this is what things I wrote in my entry:
"1) the music my parents shared with my brothers and I, 2) my family and the support for what I'm doing, and 3) my education I'm getting. Dude, it rocks. Then, after I'd said those things, Quinn made some nasty comment about naked corn or something, and I changed number 2 to right turns on red lights."
this year...I'm thankful for Dallin going and serving a mission. I'm thankful for my safety. I'm thankful for my amazing friends. I'm thankful for my family being so weird and supportive (even it it can be seriously overwhelming) I'm thankful for my summer, and Europe, and fiddle camp, and now my apartment where I can have my own messy room.....
I'm refine this to an even three by Thursday.
SUPERCRACK is heading for the skies....