quick filler in
May 05, 2003 at 10:10 a.m.
Okay, this is Reva here:
I know I'm not supposed to be typing so I'll make this quick....
Today is kind of a big day. You see, I'm a mess. I found out last week my scholarship might not be sticking around. Seriously.
I have one year to go in this masters, honestly, not that much to finish, but I'm starting to wonder if I should just blaze ahead anyway...
I don't know. The school is being nasty mean to me. My eating disorder gets worse by the day. My arm still hurts almost constantly. The med I'm on makes me nauseous and have panic attacks all the time.
I'm not myself anymore. I could press on for one more year, but I'm sacrificing my heath and my future and I'm getting nothing back right now. I want to enjoy my success, but I'm so sick right now, I have no idea how I'll survive one more year.
I might take some time off. I think I'd stay here for my job, but I really still hate it here. It's killing me.
I'll talk to my teacher in a bit. We'll see.
Oh, by the way, TOTALLY go see Bend It Like Beckham! Such a great flick!!!
And also - I ran out of gas 3 times last week! I need a new car with a working gas gauge!!!
SUPERCRACK is cracking