a bad day kinda
October 12, 2001 at 2:20 a.m.
so i think i'm not happy right now. I keep getting sad.
i'm not graduating in may. a little later in the summer, but no hoopla.
no biggie.
and i think i just embarrased myself at the gig i played tonight because i think they were expecting someone a little better. not some mediocre gutarist in the corner with her friend singing a song with the words "pot" and "anorexia."
i wish people didn't tell me they think i'm good and i'll do good things someday. it makes me think they have stupid ears.
the cat got neutered, but it still tried to drink my chocolate milk and when I got irritated because i couldn't enjoy a single chocolate milk after the last 2 horrendous days, my roomate got mad. i hate it when people get mad at me because i can't stand the cat. all i know is, i was very sad and i wanted a chocolate milk and some mean cat jumping so he can drink it makes me mad.
it's my house and it's my chocolate milk.
i have a friend that is starting to really get to me and i hope i don't tell her off. i have so many nice friends, why dos she have to always tell me she's better?
i just need to have a good day, and i think tomorrow will be it. urmi's putting make-up on me, im going to a bonfire and then a mormon dance. even if i don't have a good day, i'm due for a good cry again anyhow.
the darn optometrist almost didn't prescribe me contacs because he thought i had an eye infecion. nope, i'd just been crying all day. why don't boys get it? i'm so glad i'm a girl and i get to cry all the time.
supercrack is turning 22 on tuesday. maybe that's why she's so weird.