last concert
April 25, 2002 at 8:37 a.m.
What a night... I cried like the goober I knew I would, but it was unavoidable.
5 years I've been in the UNT symphony.. I cried at my first concert as they applauded - that Rachmaninov Symphonic Dances totally kicked my butt and sitting back there in the 2nd violin section, I was sure I was goona do something dumb like I always did in reharsal. But for once I didn't.
And last night... words can't describe the Mahler 2, especially with how well our brass played too. It was just.... DUDE.
I had invited a dear little old lady from the rest home to come see and after a scary sceduling snaffu, we got her to the concert, beautiful and Mr. Crabtree once again proved himself one of the dearest boys on earth because he sat there with her and was attentive and kind. Golly I'm lucky.
Arturo came up to me crying and said "there won't be any more pretty girls in the orchestra now!" Apparently he has a friend who is obsessed with me and has come to every concert I've done for the last 3 years, watchng me... heehee...
I got up the guts to go up to Brusilow and ask for a picture and he kissed me (repeatedly, dear little dirty of man:) and called me by name (how he remembers it I'll never know!) and told me how much he appreciated looking at my happy face for all the years. Just the fact that he called me over by calling my name was enough for me...
I'm the luckiest girl in the world. This concert was the greatest way to end all the years, the music, the headaches, the love....
It just jeeps hitting me, just a little that I'm really ging to leave this place where I've finally found my place.
Ug. candis, I love so much - thanks for the comfort yesterday. And Marcy and Phlippy... *sob*... I'm just too lucky to even describe how blessed I am to have you in my life.
I'm still friggin mushy. Honestly - I'm really worried because they made a DVD of the concert and John was outside checking out the monitors and they kept panning over me as I was crying on stage. AKAKAK. I don't want to have my gooberness legendary or kept for posterity.
SUPERCRACK is ug... speechless? what a beautiful life:)