this girl...
September 17, 2002 at 7:49 a.m.
ooooo, yesterday was hellish... but I'm not going into that yet.... I have incredible news (cross your fingers, the ticket isn't purchased yet, buuuuut....)
URMI IS COMING TO MY HOUSE IN COLORADO FOR THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!!
*pant pant pant*
I'm so beside myself happy that I just can't describe it. Life IS good. This is my reward for doing my homework, I think. I'll take it!!
but now onto my day and what I learned yesterday...
well, I can't really say I learned anything, but I saw something that made me pause to the point of being frozen...
I had to drive around downtown Tempe yesterday, looking for my bank so I could depsit some money and not have yet another warrant out for my arrest. Dang it.
I got pretty lost, and the morning traffic scares me, so I ended up parking a few blocks away from the back and hiked it over.
But just before I got to the parking structure, I saw this girl waiting at the crosswalk who made me pause... she wore a white shirt and it was obvious she was wearing make-up, but akwardly. In fact, that's the word I would suet o describe her - akward. She had a pile of books in her arms and moved about like a scared rabbit - uncomfortable in her skin and the situation of life...
I winced when I saw her. I could feel her obvious discomfort and it made my tummy hurt. I said a little prayer, hoping she would find some happy.
As I left the pasking structure to hoof it the the bank, I passed that same intersection, only now the girl was laying in the middle of it, surrounded by firefighters and passers-by. Her books were stacked neatly next to her head, and she was crying and screaming - I just can't forget the look on her face - shame, fear, pain...
I think she'd been hit by a car. I don't know. I wanted so much to go hug her, but she was surrounded by people and they would have told me to step aside.
I still feel shaken. The rest of the day was disasterous, but here's to another day, eh?
I had Urmi's voice in my head all day yesterday though - "everything is for a reason... find it." Dang I love her. But it's true - if my car hadn't blown up in New Mexico, I wouldn't know that amazing family that brought me here, I wouldn't have met Travis at the rental car place and all his amazing friends...
I don't know why I saw that girl, but I do know while I was getting lost I found the Salvation Army and I'm going there after class to see if I can help. Help me, actually - service does so much more for the giver that the receiver can know.
I have my first blind date on Saturday. With a guy who is friends with a guy who is the husband of a girl I met on the bus.
Oh, what a tangled web we weave when we let people set us up....
SUPERCRACK says HUG SOMEONE. I cannot stress this enough!!