brain wave goo
July 31, 2002 at 12:56 a.m.
ug. It's too late to write an entry. I should be in bed.
Because I'm SLEEP DEPRIVED. Lemme esplayn....
I have this thing I do... every one has a thing, mine happens to be this physical tick/spasm thing I do. I don't know when I'll do it, but they're generally short and almost harmless.
I do end up hitting people sometimes when my arms flail out, or it makes me yell, or I hit some body part on something and it HURTS.
It's been going on for about 3 years and it's getting annoying. It really freaks out people who don't know me, like in line for a grocery store. But my friends ignore it. They know I can't help it.
I've seen a neurologist and he found me in good health, and I've had plenty of other doctors tell me lots of things it could be, but no one knows.
So I had an EEG scheduled for sometime this week... I made the appointment ages ago and I forgot. I figured it was Wednesday... the rule for the test is, you have to be sleep deprived, so I planned on stayng awake tonight.
But the hospital called this morning at 6am and told me it was TODAY and I was missing my test. Eeep! It takes months to get in! I was screwed!
Luckily for me, I'd only gotten 3 hours of sleep at that point (night owl me) and she had a miracle of an opening at noon, so I stayed up from 6am on to be nice and exhausted for my EEG.
The lady stuck electrode thingys all over my head and neck... to adhere them, she used some thick gel stuff that made my hair stick out like a greasy alrernative rocker.
Then I laid there while a compoooter monitored me. I was afraid I wouldn't have an episode ... I mean, I needed to have my brain waves measured while doing my spasm thing or this whole EEG would be for nothing.
Luckily for me, I had a few big ones. It hurt so bad, I started tearing up. I have no clue what is wrong with me. I feel like a freak!
then when the test was over, I was given a comb and the opportunity to "fix" my hair. Impossible. I just let it stick out like I was a crazy person and went to get some lunch with the mom.
People looked at me like I was nuts, looking so freakinsh. I wanted to yell "I'M sleep deprived! I had a serious medical brain wave test taken this morning and the goo is for medical reasons!!"
But I didn't. Let 'em think I'm nuts. I know it goes muuuch deeper than brain wave test goo hair:)
I just had the thought today that the next 4 years of my life are basically mapped out and I'm not taking an easy road. Am I masochistic or dumb?
It won't be four lonely years but it feels like it. I sure hope I make friends in Arimazona and wherever the next adventure is.
Annie came over and watched Drop Dead Gorgeous with my fam tonight. Oh heck it was so funny. Thanks for sharing sweetie!
Must see it again....
SUPERCRACK is digging in her heels... the future is starting to give her nightmares...