i think i'm exoctic... i but it's another world for being dull maybe:)
September 04, 2002 at 8:19 a.m.
Blah.
THis is all I have to say.
I crashed last night super early and slept in my school clothes... ewww - I hate that feeling. Jeans and a bra are not something I look forward to waking up in. I just turned into a lazy slob last night. Man, I need to get more productive with my schedule.
I tried staying up until 9pm last night so I could call Loren, but their freaking phone was acting dumb and no answering message, no nuthin, so I couldn't leave 'em another freaky suicide message (long story - I didn't mean to creep 'em all out:)
I miss Urmi and Loren like a mad person. I'm doing fine here - I've met a few people and I'm doing okay with the fact that I don't know everyone that I see like I did in Texas. I don't mind spending time alone, because the few cool people I've met are nifty and I can go dancing with them like we are on Friday (I met a li'l freshy girl who is a mini-Danielle, seriously - dance major, and we are soooo goona tear up the ASU opening social:)
oooo.... VH1 is playing "ordinary Boy" by Vanessa Carlton... that song mmade me ache in those first few weeks of seperation from Loren, but now it just makes me want to go running around this town where no one knows my face or my name and dance in the streets. I feel so free, so liberated from my fears and life at the moment. Ot maybe it's just the song.
One thing I absolutely love about my life is how I can appreciate my freedom... last night I was wigging because I couldn't get anything done, no decision making at all - and I picked up my car keys, drove myself to the local Albertsons and bought my Healthy Choice pizza, singing loudly along with the radio.
That seems so exotic to me I just can't even describe it.
If you can't understand why, you need to get a little un-jaded. And make things out of pipe cleaners. That sounds ultra cool to me:)
I have a lesosn today that I'm prepared for in a few ways... my teacher video tapes our lessons and I get to see now all the things they've been harping on my for years. It is so helpful!! And so ego-crushing at the same time. Wow, is my bow arm/hand just awful. It's so Russian - that's a bad technique to have. Dagnabit.
Okay, I have suceeded in saying nothing interesting at all in this entry... quickly, I must be exciting....
grshhh... can't think of anything... Loren, fix your answering machine, dang it!
Oooo, I never saw Spider-Man. I think I'm going to go see it... I've never seen a movie by myself in the theatre.. and it sounds really cool. I'm going to try it in the middle of the day soon... take myself out on a date. Am I crazy for being really excited about that?
Ooooo, one last thing - Sunday night, I got to play fiddle for Eden's family and they danced the Flag Dance. :) happy. Go hug her g*book, m'kay? 17 year-olds would drive me nuts and she taking 'em onm with a vengance. Booya for her.
SUERCRACK is off to go learn stuff at school.