heavy brain
November 28, 2007 at 8:41 p.m.
Baby went down an hour early today so I have some extra time to post. And 2 interesting thoughts are in my brain.
I got some baby formula samples in the mail yesterday. 2 big cans of it - I was surprised. I thought if you got a sample of formula it was a little envelope of it or something. Interesting. Thing is, the stuff is for a baby younger than a year - not my big girl. So dang, who do I give it to?
I looked at the expiration date and it said February 09. Hmmm... that's a year and 2 months from now. Would I have a kid to use it by then? Would I be ready - would Solei be ready - could she handle my morning sickness - would I have the energy to give her the attention she needs? I mean, I want to have more that one kid - heck - more than 2, not really for me, but for them. But when? I shouldn't wait too long - but I REALLY don't want to have another too soon. I've made it almost 14 months... how short is too short - how long is too long? And why am I suddenly thinking about something this serious because I got some free stuff in the mail???
Now, this is heavy. Now adding to the mix is that for some silly reason, I've got a touch of the wanderlust. It started last week when we went to a financial planner and discussed ways to help us get a little closer to retirement. How to save and such.
I didn't understand any of it - all I know is we should save money. And Jared REALLY wants to retire - heck I want him to. And all I know is we did manage to save a good bit of money when we were in Brasil. Put two and two together and my wee brain says "duh, let's go back and pad the bank account!"
That's as logical as I get. And now, less logical as I start to feel anitch. I've been in the states for about 9 months now. Before that, I lived in our house for a year, my apartment for just under a year, and before then I was in college, moving every few months for 7 years. I'm not used to staying in one place for any period of time - and I'm starting to itch.
Why the heck would I think this?? I have a great home, a teaching studio, back with my band and I'm getting my feet in a good place. I also live within 5 miles of in-laws who watch my kid so I can teach. I pretty much have it all.
And all I can think about is "where to next?" I'm a sick, sick person.
Thankfully Jared's job is okay, so we'll be here at least a few weeks more;) I mean really, after all the turmoil and packing I've had to do (I HATE PACKING!!!) - why would I even think this?? Especially when my previous thought is about when should I get preggo again, sheez! I'd really like to try giving birth in the US at least once.
Yep, my brain is trying to kill me.
SUPERCRACK. nutso.
ps to Jane - of course I'm surprised I got a good kid!! Just ask my mom about what kind of child I was!! I am so nervous to see if I DO get what I deserve with the subsequent bebes:)
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