i was goona be WHAT???
2001-07-21 at 10:43 p.m.
Today I was disappointed in the freakishness of children. We woke up early to fetch my Unc Allen from the airport but it was a rouse - because we were really going earlier to get my cousin Nicole's bro and sis - who came as a surprise for the weekend. Nicole was missed them oh-so-desperately for 2 weeks and so we had the video camera going ready to catch the screams...
Nuttin.
All this exhuberance on my part for nuttin. She didn't even break a sweat! All this deviousness out the window.
Kids.
And later as I was running though the sprinklers with them - all at least 10 years younger than I, and me acting younger than any of them ("I'm a water ballerina!!") - I realized something big. 3 years ago I was actually planning on getting married. My heck!!! What was I thinking? Responsibility - commitment - deeeep stuff!! How did I ever think I was ready foor something like that? Well actually, I didn't, that's why I got out - but still...
I have this dream of having a time machine and showing my old self how everything ended up.
That mature 18 year old knew everything and her make-up was oh so perfect and she was darn pretty and my sweetheart loved me.
Fast forward 3 years - no make-up except for stage productions and I'm a wreck half the time and the sweetheart flaked and is married to a girl from Switzerland. Or Sweden.
And the truth is...
I am SOOOOOO much cooler that 18-year-old me.
SUPERCRACK is older and has more insurance :)