good times against my will
January 27, 2002 at 9:54 p.m.
so how do you feel about the layout? Does the background annoy you? it's a work in progress - lemme know, m'kay?
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It's odd. No matter how hard I try to be miserable, there's no way the guy upstairs lets me.
I think my life is supposed to stink because of the negative things around me, but it never turns out bad anymore.
You'll never believe what happened tonight...
Danielle and I were asked to play for a baptism - flute and violin. Of course we said yes. We play well together and it's such a good feeling to be able to share our gifts at wonderful happenings such as these.
And yet....
We get there, I warmed up and I'm sitting there as calm as can be - when out of the corner of my eye I spot - THE ROACH. Yeah - the guy who cheated on my, lied to me and was basically the worst person I've ever known. WHAT WAS HE DOING THERE?? HE LIVES IN CALIFORNIA.
I never thought I'd have to see him again. And there he was, with his wife and baby. I started shaking so much I could hardly hold my pen, let alone a bow. I do a good deed and this is how I'm blessed? Huh?huh??
Danielle held my hand and we played beautifully. And then we left, right in the middle of the talks. Had to get out. I slighly freaked in the parking lot for a second - mostly out of shock that I was doing so well. Danielle put her arms around me and I found my way to the car. As I turned around to pull out of my parking spot, I saw him in the doorway.
The pig had followed me.
This was the recipe for a horrible night, right? But no, as I'm layng on the couch listeneing to Pete pay beautiful music on his guitar after feeding us a surprise meal, I couldn't believe how happy I was. now that I don't need anyone(except for my parents), I swimming in marvelous people. I don't get it.
and last night after a horrible disapointing scene with the boy, I was planning on watching a movie and crying in ice cream all night... but instead, I had a surprise visit from Joann and Pete... where I fell asleep during a movie and told Joann in my stupor that she shouldn't forget to tell her parents she's NOT GAY (she's not, bytheby).
Who says these things? Moi, that's who.
SUPERCRACK is a superblessedfreak:)