owie but happy
February 27, 2003 at 1:32 p.m.
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg.
had mt physical therapy appt today. it was awesome! they were so good! turns out i have some nasty flared-up tendonitis in my left arm, and i can't play violin for a while. my next appt is tuesday... i hope things are better soon. i have to play!!!!!!
i can't even play guitar. i can't cook! i drive with one hand and as i type this entry completely with my right hand, my left is propped up on the desk, throbbing.
this is reallyreally horrible. trying to stay positive though. i caught it before i did serious damage. it's a big lesson to learn... i think God is trying to tell me i really do love the vioin. i can't give it up, even now. dagnabit.
the guy i'm seeing is making dinner for me tonight. he needs a name... let's call him... Smiles. yeah. because he has one of the biggest smiles i've ever seen.. it can really brighten up a grey thursday.
he called last night and then told me he'd call me after work... which he did. i might have even stopped by for seinfeld, but i was waiting for a very important phone call - paul from england is in colorado visiting! so he called and we got to chat, oh happy day:)
but the thing is - why did Smiles tell me he'd call after work? are we at the check-up call stage already? eeeep... i really like him, don't get me wrong, but i'm afraid of routine right now. especially a check-up-phone-call routine. i don't want to miss another person and need to check up on them. it's scary - it makes me feel vunerable.
but i've done a great job of not letting things get settled right now. i have my own busy life and every now and then, Smiles is there too. that's kind of nice:)
my right hand is in almost as much pain as my left, so i gotta stop typing now. i feel happy again.
my life is moving in new places and my Heavenly Father is teaching me things. can't get better than that!
SUPERCRACK says owwwwiiiie!!!