always coming back from Texas
February 10, 2003 at 7:27 a.m.
This weekend was exactly what I needed.... in every way. Some ways I didn't even imagine I needed and possibly wouldn't have wanted, but there's a guy upstairs who knows me and knows what I really need.
Being with Pete and seeing the gradual change of my best friend was just an incredible experience. He smiles more now, and surprises me even more with what comes out of his mouth. I really don't have words... it was wonderful, just wonderful.
Snuggling and staying with Danielle was another blessing and a half - waking up to a dear friend with her feet in your face is a joy you have to just experience. I could stay happy in her room forever, I just know it.
And seeing Urmi is always a treat - I can't get enough if her. I wather her sometimes and am so impressed by how funny and smart she is, and then I wonder why the heck she could love someone as dorky as me, but she does and ....
erf. I have saying goodbye. It's not so bad because it's only "see you later," but I wish I didn't have to live without the people I loved consantly.
Now get this though - my friend Scandalous candalous came down to Denton to have ice cream at Beth Maries with me! It was so marvelous to chat and play with her in the true Candis way - she's a rock and I love it:)
And she gave me a present....
If you know Scandalous like I do, the academic, well-coiffed, oboe-playing, court-reporting gal - then this'll make you laugh as hard as I did -
A CD with nothing on it but Britney Spears singing "stronger" . . . . . . . to help me get over ASU and the last boy. When I listen to it, it makes me laugh - but it actually does work - and then it reminds me that I have the niftiest, funniest friends EVER.:)
So it was harder being in Texas than I thought. I've been doing great holding to my resolve and having no regrets about leaving the boy in my past, well, until I sat in Denton Texas for a little while.... I can't even explain why, I just hurt.
But as Danielle noted - I'm doing "stangely well." I really am, it's just I think I'm over being reallyreally mad at him and nw I'm in the next stage. Hope it doesn't last long.
So Daniele and Ben came up with the idea that I should pierce my ears to make a statement and to give me something else to think about.
I'm 23 years old, but I was raised by a woman who is morally opposed to piercing anything, especialy ears.
I agree to some extent, but I also don't care - I think it's a silly thing and it's too frivolous for me . Whatever.
Well, for laughs, I called mom and asked her what she'd think if I did it, and she started screaming.
NOOOOOO!!!!! NOOOOO!!! NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
Wel that answered that, I guess. I do have to live with her, anyway... But I AM 23 and I still don't like being told what to do.
So I told her I did. Just to get a rise out of her. Well, she went nuts.
And proceeded to send an e.mail to the guy. The one I just split with. Yeah.
Out of the blue, she did it, and I don't know why and it made me so mad I almost actually did stick needles in my ears just to piss her off.
Moms shouldn't go there. I'm still furious with her. And it's intensifying iteslf with how stressed I am and with how badly I'm coping with trying to juggle 3 careers that my dad has thrown at me and I think I'm going to fail at every single one because there's not enough time to do any one well.
RRRrrrr.
MAtMunch called me to check up on me and to see what went wrong in the scheme of Reva relationshps. Listen like the dear friend he is.
"I know it's for the best.."said I to the Munchster..."I don't see it now, but I'm sure I will later, and maybe I'll feel better?"
"It's always for the best, Reva. That doesn't mean it doesn't always suck."
I need to go to Georgia. I can't be away from my friends anymore. Especially ones that understand me as well as MatMunch does.
So I'm back in Arimazona and I have a full day of things to do. I'm going to listen to "Stronger" and maybe I'll be able to do them all?:)
SUPERCRACK is moving.