airport scene
December 01, 2003 at 4:55 p.m.
I woke up early, but later than I had planned this morning and drove myself through insane traffic to the Phoenix airport. To hang out with Loren during his 2 hour layover here on his way back to Utah.
Part of me wondered if I should even go, but we're such good friends now and we talk so often that it just seemed odd not to. But we hadn't seen each other since the break-up almost a year ago, and there's always the questions that could arise...
It didn't seem odd to have him there next to me. We complained about family drama at Thanksgiving and teased each other and just relaxed. It seemed natural to be talking to my friend.
When it was time for him to go back through security and to his plane, we hugged quickly and said our polite hav-a-nice-day-s and I walked away. But I turned after a few steps and saw him scanning the crowd, trying to see me, but he couldn't. I just kept walking for a while more... then, I stopped and turned around and walked back to the spot I'd seen him last before he'd gotten in line, and called him on his cell phone.
"Hey, it's me - turn around!"
"Hi! What's up?"
And for the first time that morning, we really looked at each other. I couldn't bring myself to look at his eyes before. We were just quiet for a moment... I felt... something... and I said -
"Thanks. For everything."
"No Reva, thank you."
And suddenly for some reason I can't explain, I started crying. I waved at him slightly and walked away, still on the phone. I walked thought the airport crying, wondering what I was feeling and not able to hang up just yet...
"I love you," I said.
"I love you too."
pause....
"But not like that... that's gross."
He laughed and we wished each other well and then we hung up.
And all I could think while I was walking away was.. what a difference a year makes. And it was worth it. It really was. We'll always be the best of friends, we can't help that anymore, but sometimes it's not supposed to work out. And that's okay. Because it was worth it. I was really loved once in my life. And he let me go because he knew I could be happier, even though I didn't want to admit it.
Mat really was right. Love - real love, no matter what the outcome, is worth it.
Someone needs to make a freaking movie about me.
SUPERCRACK says Kiera Knightly should star as me!!!