realization
March 31, 2002 at 1:22 a.m.
without further delay, introducing the one - the only - PETEEPOOH!!!!!
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the date shin-dig was a sucess and I'm exhausted and pleased. A good feeling to have.
I got an e.mail from the violin prof at Arizona State this morning. She told me she is putting together the list of students she wants for next year and is hoping that I will accept the scholarship and come to ASU.
She really wants me... the acceptance letter and the scholarship notification got sent to my parent's house in Colorado and I've never actually seen them. Even though I've been excited about possibly moving to Arizona, it never really hit. Until today...
I had to drive up to Plano (near Dallas) for a rehearsal this morning and I became so overwhelmed by the relief and pure joy of my life right now... I just started crying.
I've been so worried about how uncertain my future seemed, and now I've been accepted to a top university with a full-ride sccholarship and... in my personal life after so many years of teetering and tottering, I'm back to myself.
Last night I dressed in full 80's regalia for a church dance. Tonight I threw a group date. Reva is back.
It only took 4 years. I'm glad I've removed painful people and the bad choices.. and what happens when I do?? My life locks into place.
I GOT INTO THE ASU MUSIC SCHOOL!!!!
I cried so hard - I've never sobbed from sheer joy before.
ech, am I loosing my edge with all this talk of happiness??
SUPERCRACK doesn't care. It's good to be the princess again...
p.s my date was so much fun! he's tremedously adorable and so kind - but people, he thought I was 25!!! (someone told him that) O MYHECK!!!!! ISSUES!!!!!