he's just too good
June 22, 2005 at 7:47 a.m.
This entry is mostly mushy, but I'll sick this part in here first.
Jared is a common name, right? If you haven't heard it, let me kow becuase I'm pretty sure it's normal. Anywho, just got some paperwork back from his emergency room stay back in CO, and they spelled his name "Jerod" and "Jaked."
And you wouldn't believe how many times they misspell our last name. They add a d, some extra t's and an n.
Hey, like this is any better than my maiden name;) From Polish to English.
Hey, at least I get to have a fun signature!
So he's right. I know he's right I've told him he's right. So why is it taking so long for my heart to catch up?
It's simple enough - it's a house. namely, Jared wants one. He's wanted one for years. I, on the other hand, have not ever wanted one. Heck, having my own apartment was a huge step. But Jared's been hankering after one and has lots of reasons why it's a good idea.
And I just haven't been able to get on board.
Monday we both had the absolute worst days - stuck in traffic, finding out both our cars have blown their head gaskets, he had a nutso time at work and I had an insane day around the apartment (I need to get busier, I'm starting to drive myself crazy!), nd then we went to visit the realtor allll the way across town... org. Dinner got ruined, we had a tiff and I cried while he tried to help, but his head was killing him.
It was so hectic, so miserable, Jared even went out for a walk. And I couldn't be happy about anything. I wanted to - if I'm going to have to ge a house, I might as well be excited and starry eyed because there's no way I can understand what is going on. And being starry-eyed would just be more fun.
He listened to all my reasons why I was scared - none of them are as valid as the reasons to go for it, I know this. Sometimes I wonder how many htings he can stand having me say "okay, but I have no idea how, you need to do it." Like taxes, buying the home, the mortgage, home improvements, heck, he's already stopped killing spiders for me!!! Monday was just a monday - it was awful.
So yesterday, just as scared, didn't get much accomplished and was sick and worried all day. I tried to help by searching for some homes and picking out some new ones to check out, but my heart wasn't in it. I wanted to though, I wanted to try to be excited, happy. It just wasn't working. Joel randomly called and wanted to know if I'd been eating. He knows me too well. So he met me for a smoothie and friend time. I've really missed friend time. That's why Annie MUST come live here. She must!!
And then Jared came home with a smile, just wonderful. Held me, talked with me, and pulled me away for a random movie on a Tuesday night. We always get there early and hope for that one time when we'll be the only ones in the theater, but it never happens. He told me once it did hapen with him, his sister and a friend, and they snuck 2 pizzas in too! That's my dream....
We saw Hitch at the dollar movies - funny chick flick, but one with enough physical comedy that Jared could appreciate, too. The best part was Jared leaning over during the movie at some point and telling me he loved me.
How is he SO GOOD at making everything better??? When I get down, he's amazing to get me over the hump. He's not always ready at the moment that I crack because it's always unpredictable and hard to understand, but he comes back swinging, just right.
And sorry about all he mush. I'm just happy to have some mush to report and not just expound on all my worries and woes.
Oh, and you ladies - unless you've been living under a rock - the Victoria's Secret semi-annual sale started yesterday. That's when I go stock up on the half price bras that are actually at a normal price. And some other stuff that if I'm not mistaken, Jared approved of;)
Go enjoy your day. SUPERCRACK is working on it.