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February 23, 2005 at 5:45 a.m.
So today me and my students fly away for Reno Nevada in hopes with coming back with the national title.
No, we're not stressed at ALL.
Oh, and did I mention my job is getting a partial ax next year? It gets cut down to 1/2 time so I have to compensate by possibly driving to the middle schools to get the rest of my hours in. I don't think I'll get benefits or anything like that.
Whenever God closes a door, He opens a window. This is not that big of a deal because He has taken such good care of me, I know He will continue to do so. I'm just a little nervous about the unknown. I have NO idea what is in store for me next year. I don't even know what I am capable of.
Is it wrong to dream about a day when my life won't constantly be in flux? When I'll be able to relax? A day when my husband and I will know and understand each other well enough to communicate like old pros, a day when I'll know what I'm doing, I'll be able to control and handle what responsibility I have, and a day when I don't have anything to come home to scream about....
Can I be happy, really happy? I have to find joy in the flux. I must. So much depends on it.
I'm really, really, really, really going to miss my Jared. I won't get to see him until Sunday afternoon. Darn it, he's my favoritest.
AK! Enough with the freaking, I must away! OFF TO RENO!!!!!
SUPERCRACK is jettin'!