it's only a daaaay aaaaaaway!!!
May 30, 2007 at 9:10 p.m.
2 nights in a row I have had retreat to the couch around 11pm when it has become impossible that I could possibly fall asleep on my own. Before I got married, I'd watch TV to tune out, but I've tried to train myself to sleep on on my own so I can snuggle up with Jared. But the last two nights, it's just been too hard to turn off my brain and sleep.. you seee,
We close on our house tomorrow!!!!
The only un-perfect moment in this is that our cable won't be hooked up until next Wednesday.. no internet??? The princess simply cannot survive!!
Wait, yes I can!!!!!! I've been laying awake, thinking about the house - I'm going to nest!!! We are going to unpack all our stuff that has been packed for the last year and live like humans again!!! No more living out of a suitcase!!!!!!!!
I dream of Ikea in ways that keep a girl up at night. I'll get to open things I bought for Solei before she was born - including the crib. I'll put things on the walls, have places for her toys, and the whole dang place has new carpet so she can crawl about and not worry about bonking her head on hard floors (except for the kitchen, but I don't plan on cooking so no worries;)
I'll get peace... my own bit of space in the world. SO. GOOD.
!!!!!!
I'm slightly giddy. And I doubt I can sleep tonight as well!
So you know how my BBF Urmi and I have this creeplily parallel life? A quick recap:
-We did our masters at the same time
-Both had dead-end goober boyfriends at the end at the same time
-met our husbands within a few months
-Got married within a week of each other
-Got preggo within 4 months of each other (Gave irth withing 4 months, too.. heehee)
and now.....
We're both closing on our homes tomorrow!
How is that for nuts??? Yay for us!!!!
Solei is crawling!! She's still smiling al the time and is locing everyone around her. She's getting all cute and pudgy, and not a day goes by that Jared and I don't stop and some point and are in awe of how beautiful and adorable she is. It's like her default setting is happy. I want to keep her that way forever. I don't want her to get any bigger!
This Dashboard song - Stolen - rings in me every time I take the time to really see Solei. you... have... sto-len my... heart....
I feel so capable, so HUMAN again. It only took me 7 months.. she got so dang sweet and semi-mobile and I can't stop trying to get her to giggle at me.
I have some newfound cousins in Nebraska who have led these peaceful lives and I was wondering how on earth did they get this lucky - staying in the same area as their families for colege, meeting their spouse and settling in the same area and having babies in the comfort of that area and their families... I dunno, I hear that and I wonder, why not me? Why did it have to be so insane, so traumatic?
And I have to remember... I chose to have in interesting life. God knows if I were supposed to live my life in Nebraska and not get to live the rollercoaster that is my life, I'd be out of my mind. Everyone has their differences, that's all. I was handed the right life, I think.
Just need to remember that every now and then.
SUPERCRACK is thankful.